Skipping a few hectic and rather irritating days for 55555.

12/24/09: 1. hugs 2. driving alone 3. home alone 4. exhaustion 5. relief

12/25/09: 1. road trip 2. jaguars up close 3. screaming 4. relief 5. dancing with eyes closed

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Hopeful plans:

-Directive online

-Portrait series

-mix cds

-More art

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Currently Read: Lives of the Artists by Calvin Tompkins

Motivating and Intriguing. I look at renowned artists as other people look at celebrities.  I always assumed these artists just knew how to make work more efficiently, thought more productively, naturally spewing out successes over and over. And I knew that was an idealized vision, but what else would I know being a twenty three year old, not-at-all successful artist, living in a space too small and giving my time to other people and things?

It’s a relief to know that some of these internationally famous artists will sit and brood over an idea for days, months, weeks, and never really get anywhere.  To know they had failed relationships, no money at times, day jobs, and total lack of support. To know some only just figured it out at near forty. To know the legal battles they face.  It makes that life approachable, and in a way liveable.

The worst part is that I will probably forget this feeling.

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