Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” Rumi
Neoteny
“Humanity has advanced, when it has advanced, not because it has been sober, responsible, and cautious, but because it has been playful, rebellious, and immature.” -Tom Robbins
Telephone Translation
My upcoming horoscope: “I think it’s fine to believe that civilization is in a terrible mess if it motivates you to shed all your trivial distractions and inessential wishes so as to dedicate yourself to living an exciting, generous life that’s rich with love and meaning.” The Telephone Translation Game : (my thoughts written into [...]
False Homes
Moving in a few days. “Hasta Lasagna” “Have a GodDamn Great Wednesday”
I would wrestle with the devil just to get back home to you darling
:::: 55555 2/6/10: 1. driving 2. Lonely Teardrops 3. Vests 4. dogs 5. fresh air 2/7/10: 1. motivation 2. changes 3. swimming 4. warmth 5. rest 2/8/10: 1. running 2. communications 3. french braids 4. attractive man over almond milk 5. 30 days 2/9/10: 1. snow! 2. coffee 3. sledding 4. snow day 5. Lake [...]
Lovesick Glass Candy
55555 2/1/10: ***void*** 2/2/10: ***void*** 2/3/10: 1. paint 2. warm socks 3. clyfford still 4. rest 5. sleep 2/4/10: 1. Magenta Eyes 2. Oslo 3. rest 4. strength 5. swimming 2/5/10: 1. coffees 2. 10 mile bike 3. new horizons 4. Abe 5. Glass Candy ;;;;
I prefer to be politically anonymous.
While I have concerns regarding social welfare, the environment, foreign relations, financial stability, and human rights I find I am rarely satisfied with political banter. Neither ‘side’ works for me. There seems to be no one who defines what I believe in. Politically Ambivalent? How many of us are like this? Yes, I voted this [...]
Every Night I Swim
Swimming has been an increasing theme in my dreams. Looking into what it means: If you are swimming in your dream you are most likely swimming through the ocean of your unconscious and through the sea of your emotions.// Swimming can represent moving forward in your life or trying to achieve a goal (get somewhere [...]
Egypt will be widowed.
12/4/09: 1. Giving notice 2. silk hummingbirds 3. Sazerac 4. Anticipation 5. sleep 12/5/09: 1. Shortness of days 2. scrubbing and cleaning 3. drawing 4. pesto 5. future plans 12/6/09: 1. Going out for breakfast 2. library 3. Ryann 4. old photos 5. bonfire smell 12/7/09: 1. ironing 2. coffee 3. packages in the mail [...]
If you say so, I’ll leave
Still in suspense::::
Feels like Fireworks Inside
Taking leaps without knowing where I will end up. Precarious balance between wonderment and depravity (melodramatic!). My etsy shop was just highlighted on The Women’s Colony! Thanks Jodi! Anxiety over current circumstances has made it impossible to sleep, despite being tired. It takes hours to fall asleep, I sleep like a rock, and wake up [...]
All the soarings of my mind begin in my blood.
“The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.”-Rilke Truth be told! ::::: 12/1/09: 1. completion 2. addressing difficult issues 3. robbins and rilke 4. contentedness to be alone 5. realizing that this is not the right place :::: romantic at heart. lost heart. waiting. waiting. O, wilt [...]
All your words are as idle wind
55555 11/30/09: 1. Post office 2. high heels and a red dress 3. opportunities 4. A sailor 5. drawing :::: November is over. Luke said the next Chinese new year will bring a good one for tigers after a year of trials. ::::
Sang-froid
55555 :::: 11/26/09: 1. 5k completion! 2. gin rummy 3. monopoly 4. jamo’s 5. success 11/27/09: 1. rest 2. productivity 3. luke 4. old muhs boys 5. options and opportunity 11/28/09: 1. coffee and successful friends 2. ideas 3. getting the hang of it 4. new music oh new music 5. comfort 11/29/09: 1. rest [...]
Je pense que son tout va bien se passer
Je pense que son tout va bien se passer Oui. 11/22/09: 1. closure 2. tears 3. family trees 4. rings 5. letting go 11/23/09: 1. time goes so fast 2. tom robbins 3. Katie S. 4. iced skim chai 5. letting go 11/24/09: 1. man with nice cheekbones 2. pine 3. Meet me halfway 4. [...]
Suns of the world may stain when heaven’s sun staineth.
:::: 11/7/09: 1. Joviality 2. Surprise party at the Casino and Bryants 3. new friends 4. sprint triathlon motivation 5. to make time for myself ::::
Lull
A momentary decrease in the speed of wind. Feeling a lull between absorption and production. It’s best not to push production too soon, or I just end up frustrated. Like picking at a scab before the new skin underneath has built up. I (metaphorically) tend to like aggravating that new skin, and it usually is [...]
My Heartbeats My Heartbeats
I cannot get this song out of my head. This video is beautiful. :::: Sometimes while I’m idle I experience that “butterflies in my stomach” feeling. It is not out of nervousness but rather I feel completely filled with some overwhelming joy. I’ve always associated it with falling in love which was the first real [...]
Fearless Feathers
10/31/09: 1. Skerdi and CJ 2. Groups of strangers with intriguing stories 3. honesty 4. reflections 5. feeling ‘whole’ 11/1/09: 1. Sleep 2. repotting and loving my growing plant ‘family’ 3. health 4. A nice looking gentleman with dark rimmed glasses and a suit shopping for vegetables (Ok, it wasn’t actually him…) 5. Calm :::: [...]
Escapism
I met a man today while waiting for the bus. He was bedraggled and had a black eye so swollen it looked like big purple lips had swallowed his eye. He was surprisingly nice, though talked of a life worn down by the pressure to fit in, of sleeping outside in the rain. I hope [...]
Just You Wait
