Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” Rumi
Lovesick Glass Candy
55555 2/1/10: ***void*** 2/2/10: ***void*** 2/3/10: 1. paint 2. warm socks 3. clyfford still 4. rest 5. sleep 2/4/10: 1. Magenta Eyes 2. Oslo 3. rest 4. strength 5. swimming 2/5/10: 1. coffees 2. 10 mile bike 3. new horizons 4. Abe 5. Glass Candy ;;;;
Fidelity
Erudite
Catching up but still just barely treading water. All is well despite this. :::: 12/15/09: 1. successful work 2. control 3. good run 4. changes 5. energy 12/16/09: 1. Get togethers 2. Guadalajara 3. personal projects 4. apartments 5. fresh air 12/17/09: 1. License 2. Gold Beethoven Bust 3. conversation with a bearded man 4. [...]
Feels like Fireworks Inside
Taking leaps without knowing where I will end up. Precarious balance between wonderment and depravity (melodramatic!). My etsy shop was just highlighted on The Women’s Colony! Thanks Jodi! Anxiety over current circumstances has made it impossible to sleep, despite being tired. It takes hours to fall asleep, I sleep like a rock, and wake up [...]
All the soarings of my mind begin in my blood.
“The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.”-Rilke Truth be told! ::::: 12/1/09: 1. completion 2. addressing difficult issues 3. robbins and rilke 4. contentedness to be alone 5. realizing that this is not the right place :::: romantic at heart. lost heart. waiting. waiting. O, wilt [...]
Inwards Inwards Inwards
Clenched Soul
A man on the street asked
“Is there any love left in this world?” “Nope.”
Rainer Maria Rilke and coffee.
Angry and Suspicious
Can’t seem to catch up or catch motivation: 11/12/09: 1. studs 2. temps 3. fresh air 4. wandering the art museum 5. going to sleep 11/13/09: 1. busy-ness 2. writing 3. distraction 4. ? 5.? 11/14/09: 1. big bonus 2. embroidering 3. not speaking 4. ? 5. ? 11/15/09: 1. production 2. zoning out 3. [...]
Lull
A momentary decrease in the speed of wind. Feeling a lull between absorption and production. It’s best not to push production too soon, or I just end up frustrated. Like picking at a scab before the new skin underneath has built up. I (metaphorically) tend to like aggravating that new skin, and it usually is [...]
‘Hell is other people’
Picked up Irvin D. Yalom‘s collection of therapy stories “Love’s Executioner” today at the library. The book is prefaced with Yalom’s “givens” of existance (death, freedom, existential isolation). These givens are lifetime struggles for most people in some shape or form. I’m most drawn to the ‘givens’ of freedom and existential isolation at this point [...]
Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs
I learned about Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs when I was a freshman in high school, and it usually comes back to me when I have to face the reality that certain needs of mine are not being met. “The higher needs in this hierarchy only come into focus when the lower needs in the pyramid [...]
What could be done with her?
55555 10/13/09: 1. vintage chair 2. fresh basil 3. nothing 4. nothing 5. nothing Today was a terrible day. :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::;
Anouk.
A few months ago I had listed some items as unofficial homework for myself. These tasks were meant to get me motivated in a small way. I do not normally get motivated like this. Primarily, I believe most of my ideas are larger than life or not well thought out for the situation be it [...]
Melancholia and ‘I don’t live here anymore’
Currently debating writing a short essay on Melancholia. Or just writing an essay in general. (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Current artist obsession: Ugo Rondinone ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Current other obsession: Camera-traps
‘It is remarkable, this amusing message’ -spam
Alexithymia = Emotional Bankruptcy ___________________________________________
Things to talk about
things to talk about: -New watercolors -escaping Milwaukee (PeaceCorps, Americorps, moving in general, residencies) -photo projects -Emotional Bankruptcy Info Tapes -55555 -Overcoming .25 life crisis -Tom Robbins -Art of Disengagement -Learning to run distances -eighties movies -online music blogs -arts in south america -moving to a farm -working on Emotional Intelligence -telemarketers -riding a bike [...]
‘Book of Days’
55555 6/14/09: 1. Children’s smiles 2. Sunshine 3. Curb sitting at night 4. Sleeping 5. Honesty 6/15/09: 1. Honesty 2. Some Motivation 3. Risks 4. Work on Emotional Bankruptcy 5. Shower ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
homework assignments
Since reading http://www.learningtoloveyoumore.com/ I’ve been more enthusiastic to make a list of assignments. An inconclusive list: #1. Draw a haiku in Spanish (for Katie) #2. Draw emotional bankruptcy #3. Write a love letter to an unknown man who will be your next love #4. Write an essay on emotional bankruptcy #5. Write a romance story [...]
Just You Wait
