Archive for December, 2009
Religion du monde
I dreamt I went to a gym to swim laps in their pool. The gym was a wooden chalet like structure, you entered on a second level bridge with a piercing blue pool on either side of it, one floor down. It smelled of cedar and was quiet despite so many people being there. I [...]
Whistle my name
Skipping a few hectic and rather irritating days for 55555.
12/24/09: 1. hugs 2. driving alone 3. home alone 4. exhaustion 5. relief
12/25/09: 1. road trip 2. jaguars up close 3. screaming 4. relief 5. dancing with eyes closed
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Hopeful plans:
-Directive online
-Portrait series
-mix cds
-More art
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Currently Read: Lives of the Artists by Calvin Tompkins
Motivating and Intriguing. I look [...]I thought it was you…
Variations on a theme:
Oddly wonderful videos. Mountains and tropical plants. Top of the Pops with some random kissing and funny matching outfits. Darkness.
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12/19/09: 1. family trees 2. botany 3. cocktails 4. glasses 5. “You are Everything”
12/20/09: 1. early morning run 2. photo shoot 3. comfort and difference 4. We Feel Fine 5. Bonsai ForestErudite
Catching up but still just barely treading water. All is well despite this.
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12/15/09: 1. successful work 2. control 3. good run 4. changes 5. energy
12/16/09: 1. Get togethers 2. Guadalajara 3. personal projects 4. apartments 5. fresh air
12/17/09: 1. License 2. Gold Beethoven Bust 3. conversation with a bearded man 4. accomplishments 5. opportunities
12/18/09: 1. [...]Women I’d Rather Be
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12/11/09: 1.cookie party 2. holiday sparkle sweaters 3. dogs 4. man in a hat 5. cozy
12/12/09: 1. sunshine 2. so many friends 3. stories 4. Bryants 5. hugs
12/13/09: 1. pilates 2. productivity 3. library books 4. motivation 5. acceptance
12/14/09: 1. getting it done 2. creativity 3. focus 4. black market baby sweatshirt 5. hair
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In a teenage angst-ridden sketchbook I declared, “I hate family gatherings.”
This statement has been thrown back at my numerous times in past years by immediate and extended family members, in jest, in empathy, and in disappointment.
I always felt out of place at family gatherings, being practically the middle grandchild of 14 (I think) on one [...]Egypt will be widowed.
12/4/09: 1. Giving notice 2. silk hummingbirds 3. Sazerac 4. Anticipation 5. sleep
12/5/09: 1. Shortness of days 2. scrubbing and cleaning 3. drawing 4. pesto 5. future plans
12/6/09: 1. Going out for breakfast 2. library 3. Ryann 4. old photos 5. bonfire smell
12/7/09: 1. ironing 2. coffee 3. packages in the mail 4. ideas 5. [...]If you say so, I’ll leave
Still in suspense::::
Gimme
Feels like Fireworks Inside
Taking leaps without knowing where I will end up. Precarious balance between wonderment and depravity (melodramatic!).
My etsy shop was just highlighted on The Women’s Colony! Thanks Jodi!
Anxiety over current circumstances has made it impossible to sleep, despite being tired. It takes hours to fall asleep, I sleep like a rock, and wake up before my [...]“the pain of love does not break hearts, it merely seasons them. The disappointed heart revives itself and grows meaty and piquant. Sorrow expands it and makes it pithy.
The spirit, on the other hand, can snap like a bone and may never fully knit.: -Fierce Invalids Home from Hot Climates
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Embarrassment often hits my stubborn bone, resulting in rather righteous, irreverant behavior.
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12/2/09: 1. Darin 2. Books 3. Interview 4. forward thinking 5. options
12/3/09: 1. Interview 2. library 3. first snow flakes 4. adjusting 5. [...]“Will our life not be a tunnel between two vague clarities? Or will it not be a clarity between two dark triangles?”
Current Creative obsessions: Hermeticism, Sacred Geometry, Pyramids, Arrowheads, black and gold, teeth, bobcats
::::All the soarings of my mind begin in my blood.
“The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.”-Rilke
Truth be told!
:::::12/1/09: 1. completion 2. addressing difficult issues 3. robbins and rilke 4. contentedness to be alone 5. realizing that this is not the right place
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romantic at heart. lost heart. waiting. waiting.
O, wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied? repeat. [...]